who am i???

That's a good question. It's a question in which i have yet to answer. I really don't know who i am...and its not like im trying to find out. My entire life I've just gone with the wind, not saying that's a good thing but it's what im used to.

Sometimes i feel like a strnger to myself and to everyone around me. I feel like no one will ever truly get me and the on person I think has a clue I don't even speack to anymore...Jasmine. She's my bestfriend. We've been kicking it since the 5th grade and hace yet to call it quits. I miss her so much that it hurts ti even think about it. That goes for not just her but all of my bestfriends, Samantha, Anna, Dj, Gieselle, Areshia. Its funy how the people i consider my bestfriends are the ones i barely ever talk to anymore. Without them I dont make since. I guess that's why I'm having trouble figuring out who i am nowadays. For so long I've always been paired off with people.

I've always had someone there for me. To help me get through things. To give me advise. To yell at me when I'm wrong. An dnow I feel so lost without them. They're all so distant from me. It's too hard trying to live without your other half.

I feel so incomplete. I've always depended on them for everything. I got so swept up into their lives or "our lives" that i forgot to have one of my own. I forgot to think for myself. I forgot to live for myself. I just forgot. And now that their gone, I'm a lost cause.

But everyday I go on with this big smile like nothing is wrong.