Her.

I miss her so much. She's was one and only true friend for about a year while I was in high school. We did everything together. She was with me the first time I skinny dipped (it was her first time too). I wish i could go back in time just so we could go back to the old days when it was just just her and I.

God. I really miss her. Everytime i allow myself to think about her, I just cry. I mean ball my eyes out. No one will EVER know the live I have for this girl. Or that the reason I cry is because of the things that happened that cause us to be the way we are now.

I really love this girl to death. No lie.

Our friendship started off like any other one, with a commonality. She had just moved down from Ohio and I had been living in Dallas for about a year. We had no one else to really hang with in apartment complex so naturally we stuck with each other.

We had so many crazy times together. For example, we spent an entire month traveling back a forth to a trap house because we enjoyed their company. We got put out of an apartment complex pool for trespassing. We got a ride with some africans to the trap house once. We smoked tons of weed. Omg i really cant think of everything,

But anyways we were each other's ride or die. We were tight all the way until March of 2008.

It was the Monday before spring break. For me it was just a regular day. I had gone to school, bible study, and church. Little did i know my world was about to be turned upside down. I'll never forget this day because when I got home my mom and ReRe's mom had some news for me.

First they told me she ran away. Then....the reason why.

A couple of weeks before that day, ReRe went got tested for HIV. When the results came back, they were positive. But that not the entire reason she ran away. She ran away because her mom took upon herself to warn the neighborhood about the guy who gave it to her daughter, therefore her mom told everyone ReRe had it.

I was totally crushed when I found out. I felt like the universe had just took my bestest friend in the entire world away from me. I was so scared for her. At that moment all i wanted to do was see her and just hug her and tell her that everything would be alright.

But I couldnt, at least not at that moment. Luckily she returned home that same night. As soon as she got back she came to me and apologized to me. She said she was sorry for not telling me sooner and asked if I was mad at her. At that point in time i realized i could NEVER be mad at her. With everything that she was going through she was still worrying about me and my feelings. One of the most caring people in this world and she ended up with HIV.

She's just sweetest person you'll ever meet and one of the happiest and i say this in the present tense because she's still the same way.

After that a whole bunch of drama took place and she was placed in foster care while her brothers were sent back to Ohio to live wit their aunt. That week before spring break was the last time I saw her before moved back to New Orleans that summer. I had just turned 17. I'm 20 now. Since then though, I have seen and talked to her. She's doing well...just got her tubes tied, after having two kids. The father of her children knows of her condition and is okay with it.

Even though she's alive and well today, I still wish could go back to the way things used to be between us. I miss having my sister.