Ways

Lately I've been thinking of ways to encourage you. 

I want to give you hope. 

Help get your creative juices flowing. 

Lift your spirit and heal you the way you healed me. 

I want to give you everything you gave me. 

You gave me direction, love, hope, encouragement. 

You lit a fire in my soul that I'll try to spend the rest of my life repaying you for. 

I want to love and care for you in every way possible.

Show you that you are a powerful talented genuine son of God. 

I want this even if we never end up as one. 

Man oh man

I'm up.

 Wishing there could be an us.

 Wishing I could just sit and talk to you. Wishing things weren't so awkward when you and I get in the same room. 

I wish I could just tell you how I feel. 

I want more than sex. I want fireworks. I want weak knees. I want to see you smile. I want to know you in and out. I want to be your backbone. 

I want nothing more to lift your spirit and encourage you just as you have with me. 

Did I imagine the bond we formed? 

How can I help you? 

Is there anything at all I can do?

Talk to me........

Crazy.

I feel crazy right now. The only thing I want to do is talk to you. Hear your voice and tell everything I've been holding in. I never talk to you anymore and I don't want us to grow apart. I haven't been on my best behavior. I just want youuuuuuuuuu. Only you. Every part of you. Well... Eventually. I want to continue to get to know you but I don't want to be bothersome. I feel like I've been bothersome. Should I fall back or tell you how I feel?! 🙄😪😭

I should have never said hello....

I'm having intense thoughts of overwhelming sadness. I miss you and to know you might not return is killing me. There's so much I feel like I want to tell you. I haven't felt this way in a long time and I honestly just want to recover. I know you say I deserve better than you but what if I only want you. What if I'm turning down guy after guy just stay in your life. I don't want to believe this encounter was in vein. 

Eyes Wide Open

I've been overdosing on those pills and potions Nicky so emotionally mentioned. Possibly ruining my chances to be great with stagnant relationships. I need to escape to a secluded place with no one around me. I need to develop my mind and creativity again. 

Self-centered

You're always going on about what you need; never ceasing to ask about me and what's missing in my life. 

Yet expecting me to help you out. 

There's about to be a drought.  

No more am I more concerned about what matters to you. 

Your thirst and need for me will be the only thing satisfying you. 

Help.

I don't want to feel anymore. 

I don't want my eyes to continue to water at the thought of how detached you are. 

I don't want my body to get excited when you text me back or like a picture. 

I don't want my heart to beat only to be shattered by you. 

I just want to pull back and retreat from this confusion. 

I'm too young for you. 

I need to grow more.