I should have never said hello....

I'm having intense thoughts of overwhelming sadness. I miss you and to know you might not return is killing me. There's so much I feel like I want to tell you. I haven't felt this way in a long time and I honestly just want to recover. I know you say I deserve better than you but what if I only want you. What if I'm turning down guy after guy just stay in your life. I don't want to believe this encounter was in vein. 

Eyes Wide Open

I've been overdosing on those pills and potions Nicky so emotionally mentioned. Possibly ruining my chances to be great with stagnant relationships. I need to escape to a secluded place with no one around me. I need to develop my mind and creativity again. 

Self-centered

You're always going on about what you need; never ceasing to ask about me and what's missing in my life. 

Yet expecting me to help you out. 

There's about to be a drought.  

No more am I more concerned about what matters to you. 

Your thirst and need for me will be the only thing satisfying you.