Somebody

I want somebody…….

to talk to
to hang with
to laugh with
to smile at
to grow old with.

I want somebody…….

to bring me unconditional joy
to cry in front of
to lean on
to protect me.

I want somebody…….

to breathe into
to hold me
to love me without a doubt.

I just want somebody I can connect with mentally & physically.
……who will build a world of unbreakable trust & won't hurt me.

………i think I need God. He's the only being that meets this description. 

Smh, the world we live in.

Decisions, decisions!

He wants to get back together. This is the guy who broke my heart and made sure every piece of trust left me. But that was two years ago. I know inside I shouldn't say yes or is it that my guard is making me doubt him and his ability to be trust worthy. I really dont know what I should do. It's a really confusing situation. It really shouldn't be this hard. Either I love him enough to be with him or I dont. I do love him, a lot. But trust is a big factor. I haven't gained all of my trust potential back. I mean he says he'll never do anything to ever hurt me again and he sounds so sincere when doing so but my heart just won't allow me to go down that path.
I wish someone could help me with decision but in the end I'm the only one who has the final say about it.....
So confused =/

He's back...

I don't know why his where about interest me so much but they do. At first I didn't even know we were friends like that but he proved me wrong.

It started on twitter one day while I was in Houston. I was just tweeting my heart away when all of sudden he tweeted me and said he was mad at me. Dumb founded, I responded and asked why. He said it was because I went to Houston without him. I found this peculiar because he and i had only had a real conversation once. He was a guy I had had a crush on for a while and I rarely saw him except on twitter. Even in twitter I never really talked to him personally. We had never been close or even friends, so when he said he was mad at me I thought he was seriously mad at me. Anyways I asked him why and he said because I went to Houston without him. When I saw this I laughed so hard cause i didn't know he cared that much.

From then on we continued this interaction over twitter. Also I began to see him more as I start to frequent a mutual friend of ours' house. Life was going good as far as our friendship was concerned.

Then all of a sudden he was gone.

He was carried away in the back of a police car for reasons I shall not name. At first he was only suppose to spend the weekend there but then it was this whole situation. We didn't know what was going on. All we knew was he started off in Orleans parish and ended up in Jefferson for more charges. We were all scared for him. And when he went to court news got back to us that he may be in there for years! My heart was broken when I found this out. All in all I was crushing hard on him and still am.

For two months he sat in there, waiting for an answer. Then all of a sudden on October 20th, 2011, he came home. But I didn't find this out until yesterday when I saw him on my TL!!!

Omg I was so excited. I even tweeted him just to make sure it was really him. He got sarcastic with me when he replied. And all I could think was:

Ahhh, He's back! =)

That's all for now, later.